ATTACK

so. here's the story: I tend to get OCD about things. and if those things don't go the way I planned, I over-think and freak out a bit.  I'll get depressed and/or not eat for a day or so. it can get pretty intense, but the worst is when I get anxiety attacks from it.  They leave me unable to function, the blood rushes from my head, and I over-analyze EVERYTHING.  I vent and sometimes yell or cry. well, I had an anxiety attack on Saturday night. and it was really scary for me since I haven't had an attack in ferrreverrrrr.

it was totally stupid, I see that now.  I had planned on going shopping with my mom because she had this awesome coupon.  we didn't know what time they closed, but assumed it would be 9pm since 1-it was a weekend and 2-every other store in the complex closed at 9. well, we got there at 7:45/7:50, and it turns out they closed at 8. I didn't know that when I went in there and started pulling things off the racks to try on. I didn't know until they had to unlock the door to let my mom in.  I panicked. and told my mom that I didn't want to be there, it was pointless, I didn't want to try anything on, etc.  She somehow convinced me to pick on thing and use the coupon on it. and so I picked this dress:

 super cute, right? I thought I would look like trash. but we got it, and I tried it on right when we got home. and I loved it. it fits me really well and the colors are super flattering. 

I FREAKED OUT OVER NOTHING. 

that's what I figured out. yes, I spent the car ride with my head between my knees, ranting and raving about every dumb little thing going on in the world. I don't even remember what I said! it doesn't matter because it was NOTHING.

guys, I know that some things are going on in your lives that you're not okay with it. you may get a little flustered and frustrated and want to shout obscenities to the sky. BUT. just remember that it'll pass. it's something you need to go through so that you can GROW and LEARN and become a better version of YOU. because you are incredible! you are priceless, and don't let any of your trials tell you otherwise. (:

RIDE

GUYS. 

I checked "riding a motorcycle" off my Bucket List this weekend!! 

My friend and I were going to hang out, and he said he would come pick me up on his bike. Naturally, I freaked. because I've never ridden one before, and it's always been on my Bucket List! so I was SUPER excited. and kind of danced around the house a bit. (okay, I danced around a lot.)

anyways, it was like a 3mile loop around the streets by my house and then we went and chilled for a couple hours. BEST DAY EVER. I felt really cool, with one arm around him and the other trying to keep his giant helmet on my head. I felt ALIVE. and I've decided that I want one.

I know this is a super short post, but all I can say about yesterday is that it rocked. and was probably one of my favorite Saturdays of this year! I can't wait for more adventures!!! #ComeAtMeBro

FEBRUARY

Hi, y'all. sorry I forgot to post yesterday! I was sick, again. :P 
BUT I'M FEELING BETTER. and that's all that matters!

anyways. This awesome guy is the winner of my February Beard of the Month! He's in this super cool band called Crash Coordinates. (you can see their Facebook page here) they played at my friend's band's CD release on the 16th. and they know how to get DOWN when it comes to playing live. I had a wicked blast listening and watching them!

not only does he have an awesome beard, but he let me touch it. it was fluffy.

stay tuned for MOUSTACHE MARCH! I'm so stinking excited, surriously.